Veteran Bongo Flava rapper Chidi Benz has revealed that he can’t stop thinking about when he will die, with the moment offering puzzling questions while also affirming his spirituality to the almighty.

According to Chidi Benz, nothing scares the hell out of him like his own end, so what will be his fate in the afterlife?

Despite trying to fight off the thoughts over the years, they have remained glued to him, and a day can’t go by without him getting immersed in such thoughts.

Additionally, Chidi asserted that he’s one of God’s chosen sons while sharing his gratitude for the second chance at life after cleaning up from drugs.

The “Dar es Salaam Stand Up” hitmaker made the revelation during a recent online engagement with Millard Ayo T.v.

“Imani yangu ni kubwa sana na mwenyezi Mungu ananijalia sana sana, ameniokoa sana nimepata vitu vingi ambavyo kama angetaka ningekuwa ata tayari nishaondoka, kwa hiyo, naomba dua, nasoma dua, najua kuna Mungu, najua kazi hii nafanya lakini baadaye mbeleni huko kuna muda yani inatakiwa uwe…mimi ni mtu ambaye naogopa sana kufa, kila siku lazima niwaze kukufa, nimekaa nayo miaka mingi najaribu initoke lakini naona haitoki,” asserted Chidi Benz in part.

Furthermore, he also shared that he doesn’t like to dwell on topics about drugs since he’s been battling to clean up while relapsing afterwards.

While at it, he also shared that he regrets not heeding departed fellow rapper Langa’s advice on quitting drugs. He went on and disclosed that after Langa’s pep talk while riding in his car, it didn’t take long before he was arrested at the airport in possession of illicit drugs.

This is his third time cleaning up and also the longest period of eleven months after being sober.

Moreover, he also shared that he’s not comfortable since adding weight, and he’s planning to hit the gym soon.

During the interview, Chidi also delved into his heyday, noting that they thrived on merely hype with no staggering payments like it was seen.

His rate card stood at 4 million Tanzanian shillings then, which is the equivalent of about 210k in Kenyan shillings—not bad money, huh?

Subsequently, Chidi noted that despite earning that much, he lacked mentors and hung out with groupies who depleted his earnings. Let’s just say he lived for a day.

Nonetheless, he still believes in righting his wrongs since turning his life around from the drug menace.

Additionally, he shared his gratitude to Wasafi president Diamond and the Deputy Minister for Sports, Arts, and Culture Mwana Fa, among others, for walking with him during his sobriety journey.